Ok, a lot of time has passed and I've had a lot happen. My pain in my hands and knees has been joined by my back as well. I've been on enbrel, which helped a lot, and now humira, which has helped more. The problem is since starting humira, I've been sick pretty much all the time. I've had to go to stronger pain medicines, now ms-contin for pain control and norco for breakthrough pains. At least while taking the injections, my back pain pretty much goes away and my hands are a lot better. My knees, however, are another story. There is no controlling the pain I'm having there. A new mri showed my acl is torn in my right knee again. I don't know what kind of surgery, if any, will happen yet. I'm still waiting for an appointment with a surgeon that specializes in people like me.
Every day that passes, I think more and more that I'm going to have to go on to disability. I've been on medical leave from work since January and I'm simply not getting better. My right knee was the worse of the two, but now there about the same. The pain is different in the different knees but equally bad just the same.
Most days I feel more like a burden than a husband since I'm not able to do much of anything that involves standing or walking. That means I can feed, bathe and dress myself but that's about it.
The best part of all is that my medical leave insurance is a pain in the you-know-what. They nit-pick everything they get and try to find excuses to stop paying me. Then it takes a month to get things fixed just in time to start all over again. So, not only am I in complete misery, but I'm not getting paid regularly either. Yet another reason I'm thinking of filing for disability, just to get paid regularly. So, the stress of not getting paid and them trying to force me to go back to work when I'm not physically able to do it is causing my psoriasis to return, which makes my psoriatic arthritis flare up even more which causes more pain and more disability. It's a vicious circle.
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